I had been helping out in GNK for a few times but i didnt know that this time is for real.. Auntie Jude nicely asked me whether i wanan help out in the children ministry for next month.. i was like O.o Alright, i dun have any prejudice against kids but when they get out of control, they are horrific. I went in the room today and it was "shopping day" whereby the kids use their points to buy items.. I saw jasca today, but not caleb... i realise that children are actually alright, but somehow i always encounter the more difficult ones, and i was just informed the two kids that i handle last week are those with special needs. If i decide to help in GNK i will be seeing them, guiding them, teaching them, playing with them... I dun wanna run away from difficulties, and i dun wanna not do things just because i do not like... if my effort can make a difference in someone else's life, i wont mind the trouble i need to go through. Anyways, i was once a child with special needs... Shhh....... xD
I remember how naughty i was, i remember how i bully other kids and how i beat up some teachers.. but hey, im just a kid.. and having special needs so when others could not understand me this is how i express myself. So looking at them now... they can never piss me nor disappoint me. coz i went through those before.. and i understand how they feel.. and i understand what are they thinking.. maybe this is why i am destined to touch difficult kids? i dunno... god have mercy on me =(
I really need some enlightenment... reveal to me your will, and it will be done.. if serving in the children ministry is what you want, then its done.