It was a random but yet not so random outing. It was during my school time when Ben called me, to ask me out after school. Well, Ben is a sociable guy so its not surprising, but its surprising on the timing in. So after school i rush down to Dohby Ghaut interchange, haha.. i saw him waiting for my earnestly... he's so worried i get missing, well.. i always do. The first few sentence he told me when we met were.. "i broke up with her" and i was smiling, what the heck.. i think that did pissed him off alittle.. i wasn't smiling about his broke up, just happy to see him after a long day. Well, really sorry ben for being rude =/

The whole day ben was having fun, together with me, joseph and james.... Goosh, james... he's a really charming guy.. just looking at his smile can brighten up your day. haha. Oooh well, so cool.... i dun hang out with guys but they are my closety thats why i dont mind =)

throughout our game, i sense something different from ben, he seems impulsive.. over reactive? Well, i personally always ignore small details. I just wanna Own him. Lol. but too bad he's beyond my reach.

After which, i accompany the group for dinner, i didnt eat. Cuz mom already bought me food. Then suddenly he got a phone call, he rush to a corner of the building whereby the group cant see him, we didnt suspect anything though, we were talking rubbish. When he came back i saw his eyes covered with a layer of tears his nose was alittle red... Duh, the guys in the group didnt notice it. Only girls care about such details yeah? thats when i knew what this outing was about.. He wants company.
And thats when i feel so useless.. when did i begin to be so indifferent? i was always there when he needed to talk and be there be accompany him... now i cant even sense his sadness till its too late, when we needed to go home already.

I meet a new fren today, named Kevin, Joseph's fren. He is a really nice and gentlemanly guy. Totally OPPOSITE FROM JOSEPH! joseph always left me in a luanch. During a camp, a guy and a girl is supposed to partner each other, and the guy duh.. is to protect the girl.. however it seems more like im protecting him, i got torch light and handphone while he didnt have anything, and im like his tanker, i took all the "damage" from the incoming "ghosts", then this "ghost" could even hold on to me for 3minutes while joseph just stand somewhere and luagh. =.= Heng got Kevin, or else dunno how Joseph is going to bring me home from there manx.. lol.

Miss you guys. love you people. *cherish*