Lost In Time
Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 7:14 AM
As i grow older, experience all sorts of things in life to make one stronger. I start to wonder...After so many trials and turbulence thats supposed to make me wiser, made me more kiddy. I dont think i have grown, my thoughts are still of a kid's.
I am dependant on others, afraid to face problems, fear being hurt...
I became less thoughtful of my own actions. Y is that so?
I asked myself...
Once someone told me i am bright but i chose not to grow.. I answered, life is too short to worry or care too much.. i live for the moment. I dont wana worry about tomorrow, there's enough worries everyday itself.
Frankly, im glad to be a kid.
I wanna be pampered, spoilt, forgiven and loved. In this life im so deprived already, gimme a chance to be a kid i always want to be.
I felt that ive became so small.. no naive.. i dont see the world having boundaries or borders... cant people see love is what makes the world goes round. Why must people fight for their own interests? only think about themselves. If everybody can see each other as themselves, humans, kids... everybody are brothers and sisters. What a beautiful world to live in.
yesterday Jordan ask me to go backpacking after we're done with our school craps. I said "yeah... i wanna see the world =) but im also afriad"
im afraid to be out of my safety zone.
he answered " dont worry i'll protect u"
and Jordan is 4 years younger than me.
Crap! im a Kid.
xoxo.